Confidence tricks

摘要

Today I found out that I am shortlisted for that school prize I told you about last month: the You Are Youth Award. I feel elated. (That's one of the words on my vocab list that I have to use in a sentence this week so there, I did it!) Actually, 'elated' isn't quite the perfect word for this feeling. Maybe I will feel elated if I win, but I know I won't win so actually I feel more like a mixture of elated and humiliated, like when Jenny Parsons told Lizzie Childs that Aiden Sudbury was considering asking me to be the one he made Lizzie jealous with. (Obviously he ended up fake kissing Julia Roding in front of Lizzie and then Lizzie and Jenny locked Julia in a bog stall and hit her with the spikey side of a hairbrush whenever she tried to come out.) Anyway, I know that being shortlisted is supposed to be an amazing thing and I know this because my mum rang my grandma on purpose so she could brag, but to me it feels more like impending mortification.