I Remember You

摘要

They told me they'd call you in today. I needed to give you the results. You are HIV positive. You are my patient."No!" I demanded silently. "I can't do that today.""I'm double-booked, my schedule's packed.""No!" I screamed inside. I am the midwife. I give goodnews. I see happy people.I support life, relish its slippery pink arrival.The lusty cry that finds its way to my ready hands.Mostly."May I see the chart?"Would it magically revert to negative from nurse's handsto my grasp?There it was-the lab result etched on your life: plainblack ink. Surrounded by other numbers-a harmlesshemoglobin, cultures with results I could look at,Problems I could fix.But they stood undeniably, in print. The HIV antibodies.Positive.The Western Blot.It's true.